Hi Sweetie,

Here I am again writing you another future letter. I chose to send this letter on this day because this is the day you told me you like me while drunk. Around this time you met Nen last year, yes I'm good ;) I know you met her around 2nd week of August.

I started writing this letter on 4th December 2017. It's Monday, yesterday, you ignored my messages, I try to tell myself it's okay, but it's not. I miss you too much. I miss the days, wherein you seem to look at your phone every few minutes (you would be offline for an hour or so in fb) and you immediately respond to my messages as soon as you see my chat bubble pop-up. I remember, during the time when VJ was hired, we were both on lunch, you seemed a bit disappointed because you weren't able to talk to me because I was talking to VJ. No one has ever craved for my attention the way you did, was a first. It was overwhelming. I can almost imagine how you would kiss, hold, and hug me tight whenever I feel so down. I remember how you felt so content and wanted after I told you I got jealous. I'm not sure if you know, but that's also a first for me. My ex's jealousy was never healthy and I don't even know when he gets jealous until he acts upon it in a really bad way. I miss when you laugh at me whenever I tell you when I'm hungry or when I see an ice cream stand. I miss how you cared for me whenever I don't feel well. You wouldn't stop asking until I say I'm okay. I love it when you see mum every weekend to see how she is, You would always apologise if it takes a while before you can respond to me because you were talking to her. I miss how you loved me. I hope Nen realizes how lucky she is to have you - I hope it lasts a lifetime. I'm terrified that what happened between you and Taz will happen again.

After another year, I want you to ask yourself, if you were gone, who is the person you can think of who will get hurt? Who are you most afraid to lose in your life? Thinking back a year ago, a few weeks after you met Nen, who was your answer? For me it's not about who knows you better, because if we talk about who knows you the most, I would think that would be your now ex-wife Taz (I assume, your divorced by this time) she has years of being with you to prove it. Now ask this to yourself, who do you think can love you for a lifetime? Who do you think YOU can love for lifetime. I know in my heart, I can love you for a lifetime, considering what I've been through before, I know I can. However, the other question is, can you do the same for Nen or me? I guess, it's not me because you didn't choose me. All I'm saying is that, please don't continue to live a life of regrets - don't choose someone just because it's more convenient or easier. I love you and I want you happy for a lifetime, I'm still learning to accept that that person you want to be with may not be me. Maybe by the time you get this email, I'm better. Life just simply goes on, dragging but I'm still alive, I'd still be alive. I refuse to stop loving you, maybe by the time you read this, I've met someone? Maybe too soon for me, but we'll never know. Even if I meet someone new, I know deep in my heart, I would still love you in the same way. I do have a few grudges, but all the love we shared with each other, outweighed the bad too much. Love you always, my dearest kenny

Finished writing this 5th December around 1pm manila time