Hey Klo,

How ya doing haha.

I hope you have a puppy by now. I should believe that you are still single! Hehe we did promise that we would only entertain those by 26. So don't go off marrying, crushing, and fantasizing about strangers now.

My hope and my dream for you is that you lead a mindful, kind, and humble life, because that is the key to righteousness then peace, and then joy. I miss you. How odd. But what I mean is I missed you, because the me right now isn't peaceful, isn't prioritizing God and is letting fear hinder her from facing what she wants. I 'missed' you, I didn't get to achieve you.

Mom's greatest wish for me is "To always make the right decision no matter what I feel nor think or circumstance I'm in. That as early as possible I should trample on the devil and myself, because in the end we are the beneficiary of our obedience. Only obedience can save us, and putting it off for the next day is demonic. Procrastination is a demon."

I expect you to have the most deepest relationship with Abba Father, and that you have witnessed the Holy Spirit lead you about 100 times already, You should have no belly pooch by now. You should have no flabby arms by now. You should have your needle and oversplits by now. You should be composing by music notations by now. You should be filming and editing master by now hehe. You should be entering your third year of BS Psychology by now while maintaining your high grade. You should not be in the Philippines by now. You should be in another country. Insecurity, fear, doubt, anger, inferiority, and entitlement mentality should no longer have any power over you by now. I expect that you are living with the presence of your mind and to the fullest till you drop everyday. You only live once, why waste it. I wish you are making wise and righteous decisions by now. No one's going to pull you out of a rut you know, you should do it yourself.

Things might be tough right now, but it'll be alright. Keep on fighting, keep on getting up even when the world gives you so many reasons not to. Because guess what? There are still so many possibilities that tomorrow holds.

Some days may get dark and cloudy, but know that the sun will always find its way to shine trough your window again. The sun will shine on you again, it'll be brighter someday. Just keep on believing, fighting, and living.

And if you're tired, take a rest, but don't stop. Just take it slowly, one step at a time, and eventually, you'll get there :)

You're gonna be okay. Every little thing is gonna be okay. This too shall pass.

PS
if you haven't yet please please bleach your hair and then turn it to pastel pink like jihyo form twice in the more & more era <3 I love you a lot so please treat me right and well so that I knew you love'd me to.

PSS
Past Kloeh has been praying for you a lot. Her only wish was that you are happy in God.
Don't drink alchohol, just red wine but yeah, fermented stuff helps digestion :) - Barbara O'neil

July 8th, 2020