Hey dude! How are you faring? I'm doing quite alright. Today was boring and non active like all the other days. Other people really don't know how well they have it, oh well I'm not here to lament. I wonder where you are in life at this point and what you are doing because damn... its really hard picturing you dong anything at all from here on this specific day (and other days as well). Its so sad to think in al my life the one thing I've ever wanted just doesn't want to be found. I just want the perfect love so bad, not perfect, but my love would be perfect for me. I know you know I'm not depressed or anything so i can say this to you, i really just simply hate life. I still have not decided which year me I'm sending this one to but ah I- good luck and I hope things are going better for you than they ever did for me. I'm so sorry you had to go through all this heartbreak and pain but-- i do hope it'll be worth it in the end. This is probably the most readable email I've sent you. Sorry for all the others. Always remember you are loved, by GOD!!! Always be grateful. I really do hope you've met the love of our life because walking around with this pain is pretty much crap. I hope you're taking care of him and i hope he really is the one we'll grow old with because the underrated truth is everybody else sucks!!! (Obviously he doesn't because he's with you *wink wink*) I would put the emojis but im very lazy to do so ----so yeah. I'm sure you look back at me in dismay for always thinking every guy we ever liked was the one and always trying to make sense of situations that weren't even there, being delusional and honestly a little desperate for love. I'm really sorry for always being that person and i hope from here on out i don't do it again for my own sake. Everyone always just ends up being a more painful disaster than the last. Tomorrow we're picking my mom up from the airport. I love you you beautiful chocolate thang, God loves you more though????❤???? I'm sending this one a bit early cause i think you'll need it. P.S hopefully you're officially over you know who!!!

With love, Tendai