Dear FutureMe,

It's been such a long time, I really am surprised at how we're functioning xD
As for updates, idk where you're left at, but I've been accepted at AIC! and alhamdullellah into the team I really wanted <3, subhanallah and really alhamdullellah, I had no clue when praying that istikhara before applying that it was really khear or not, like I felt it was just interview experience at the end but alhamdullellah again and again. I also need to study hard, not just study, but work hard and harder inshaa'allah, aiming to do that alongside other stuff.

Stuff I need to do in summer:
- Work hard for the internship and potentially secure it somehow, inshaa'allah
- Studyyy a lot, I wanna prove to Dr. Kosba if he had any doubts about accepting me, that I'm up to more than any potential, not just regarding security, but problem solving, algorithms, theory of computation, and so much more.
- Study more ML, NLP, CV.
- Set limits well before my internship, know how I'll deal with people at the beginning, and never break boundaries too fast! You're an intern after all, so we deal as an intern only and respect others, also we avoid boy problems by this, and we do the halal thing.
- Document, Document, Document, Document everything!! any nice note from someone, or any helpful issue!
- Document! You need it and will need it!
- Avoid procrastination and increase our attention span as well.
- GYM hard and eat better!
- Try new fun activities! Explore! Read more! Do more funsies, even if they're software projects you love.
- 7efz quran <3 (yarab)


and I guess so much more, added these to my lock-in docs

What I need to work on emotionally and mentally is my brain:
- I need to readdress my mind, my emotions, the way stuff storm me in N out, the triggers that I have..... I am so delicately soft in my nature that sometimes I'm disappointed of my affections because of events, I am sometimes ashamed to admit my fear, my likeness, and more.

I am very aware, but not aware at the same time.
Handasa really grew us old ya rue, but we still need final retouching and improvements ... and I know being kind with me have been great sometimes, but I need some discipline this time.

Some real coaching on emotions and more


will see how it goes, inshaa'allah I still have 4 exams, rabena yesahel yarab, all faith in acing them inshaa'allah!

Love aw 2alam 3la weshy 3la 7asab how we're reading this,
Rowan in her 3rd chapter, aka junior year.